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Feb 2. Groundhog day.
Tried to talk yesterday. Said how I feel; of course it's all excuses. I can't help it, I told you I felt like my memory was shit, I can't remember anything, etc. etc. It's always excuses. It's always excuses. I just don't like feeling like this. I don't like feeling like I'm ignored and don't want to bother telling you anything because you're not going to remember it anyway. I don't know what to do or how to act but I don't have anyone to talk to. so that sucks.
I wish he were more confident. I wish he didn't follow me around like a puppy almost, waiting for me to notice him, for me to initiate movement. He's so cautious and careful around me, walking on egg shells. I hate it. I want to smash the fucking eggshells. Stop acting like I'm going to kick you if you touch me. you follow me around acting like that for 15 minutes, then I want to kick you when you touch me.
Tried to talk yesterday. Said how I feel; of course it's all excuses. I can't help it, I told you I felt like my memory was shit, I can't remember anything, etc. etc. It's always excuses. It's always excuses. I just don't like feeling like this. I don't like feeling like I'm ignored and don't want to bother telling you anything because you're not going to remember it anyway. I don't know what to do or how to act but I don't have anyone to talk to. so that sucks.
I wish he were more confident. I wish he didn't follow me around like a puppy almost, waiting for me to notice him, for me to initiate movement. He's so cautious and careful around me, walking on egg shells. I hate it. I want to smash the fucking eggshells. Stop acting like I'm going to kick you if you touch me. you follow me around acting like that for 15 minutes, then I want to kick you when you touch me.
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