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I like the idea of a daily journal. I've seen these memes about how today is the first page in a 365 book. I'd like to utilize that.

I've been trying to think on goals for this new year. I want to keep a journal, but I don't think this will be the place to do it. it's not what I wanted. May be better off sticking to a blog and just adding to a post every few minutes. I know me; some days I'll be writing all day, some days I'll want to skip. At the very least I'd like to keep track of how i"m feeling physically, and maybe what I ate if I can remember.

So, plans for this year. I really would like to do a vision board. I'm not sure what to put on it. or what I even want for this year. I'll be doing school for the next two years so I don't have a lot of room to grow. I'll just be existing for a little while. That doesn't mean I'm not going to do other things.

I'd like to get some more transcript work.

I'd like to do more crafting. I have a list of things I'd like to accomplish, but I don't seem to be in the mood for christmas stuff at any other time of the year. and I have a hard time completing my thought processes when it comes to designing things. I get an idea, but my brain is too muddled to pull it together cohesively. I have blankets to finish and sweaters to plan.

Everyone is picking a word of the year. I don't know what my word would be, except to find the joy. but that's not a word. I would like to be happy in what I do; not complain about everything that needs to be done. because I'm choosing to be in the situation I'm in.

I always want to do everything when I don't have time for it, and then when I do have time I don't know what to do.

Went to bed late. after 1. Slept in until about 9; hubs phone went off. No idea what made it go off. Left shoulder hurting. Low back still hurting while in bed. Stomach hurting with that feeling of ovulation; so like everything in my abdomen is attached and every movement made; laughing, sneezing, coughing, sitting down, makes everything move and it hurts. When I got up this morning, I lay on the floor for a bit to try to ease the pain out of my shoulder and back. Trying to complete some transcripts today; still have about 4 JB to finish and catch up on. Try not to think about Charlie too much. 

We got to go visit Charlie today. They called us and said they were doing a surgery and would be there until noon. So we went in and sat with him. And when the surgery was over, the doc came out and talked with us a bit. Apparently the surgery he was doing was just a stray dog. Part of his tail had, like, degloved, you know, or was skinned. And the doc was fixing it. A stray. Belongs to nobody. I don't know why I love that so much.

Charlie seemed so happy to see us. Ready to come home for sure, but that surgery is tomorrow. At first the doc said he wanted to keep him a few days after the surgery, but today told us he'd have us take him home with us, since he does so poorly at the vet. I'm trying to maintain positivity; doctor's have a way of telling you that they think things are going to be ok without actually saying things are going to be ok, because they're afraid they're going to be held liable for that, even though we all know there are no guarantees.

Still have a ton of sugar in the house. Still snacking on all the cookies. I keep getting up to go see what there is; and of course there is nothing quick and easy other than the carb loaded snacks. We can't reset our pantry and fridge until we get some money in; and thanks to the emergency vet visit on Saturday, we won't have any money all week so I just have to make do with what we have. I'm still getting heartburn after nearly everything I eat. and I'm still having loose stools. Right now I'm just happy that I'm going to the bathroom every day.

Trying to increase my water. But coffee is life. It's interesting how it seems like the more water I drink, the more thirsty I become. 

I want to focus on strength and building my body back up this year. I was going to print out the first week of MuTu just for some place small to start, but they're doing a program overall and everything will be new on January 5th. So I think I'll wait until then to start it. I want to make it stick. I need to find the time that will be good for me to do it so that it will stick. 

I have printed out my calendars for this semester in school. I use the calendars to keep track of tests and assignments for classes, so I'm working on most important first and not finishing something before something more pressing. I need to find a way to keep some kind of organized list; like a check list for the month. If I'm going to do 52 books in the year, and I'm going to keep myself on top of my crafting, and whatever else I want to do this year, I need a list to be a reminder to check off. I've just got to find the best way to do that.