16/365
Weighed myself this morning, not first thing, but after I had my lemon water and a few sips of coffee. 223.5. Ugh.
Snowed pretty good, all schools shut down for the day.
I can feel my anger returning. I had a flash today of that first girl, Misty. One time she called while we were asleep in bed, and I answered the phone. she asked to speak to him, and I said he wasn't there, and hung up on her. He rolled over and asked me who that was, and I lied and said it was my friend Kristi calling to ask if we were awake. that was it.
I'm now suspicious of everything. He got up to go answer the phone in the other room, when he was holding the phone. he takes his phone with him every time he goes to the bathroom. and sits in there for a long time. and I just cannot let go. I cannot trust. I worry about what he's doing. or I have to turn it off and just not care. Fucking sucks.
Snowed pretty good, all schools shut down for the day.
I can feel my anger returning. I had a flash today of that first girl, Misty. One time she called while we were asleep in bed, and I answered the phone. she asked to speak to him, and I said he wasn't there, and hung up on her. He rolled over and asked me who that was, and I lied and said it was my friend Kristi calling to ask if we were awake. that was it.
I'm now suspicious of everything. He got up to go answer the phone in the other room, when he was holding the phone. he takes his phone with him every time he goes to the bathroom. and sits in there for a long time. and I just cannot let go. I cannot trust. I worry about what he's doing. or I have to turn it off and just not care. Fucking sucks.
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